Thank you, Shyla, for starting this stream of consciousness for our exploration and delight! Yes, some leaves are stubborn but somehow I’ve come to realize that they have some of the biggest lessons for us when we truly “pay attention”! The life cycle which appears to “end” with the death of the human body keeps coming into my life in what seems to be very personal ways with the death of my parents last year and now with the father of my daughter-in-law. All the ethical implications and cultural practices of the dying process come crashing together as a reminder about evolutionary tension and creative friction. There will be more on this later but right now I just want to introduce cosmic voyager again, though I had left this moniker in the trunk for many years because the last half of the name was “destination unknown” from the Annie Proulx book “The Shipping News”. Now that I found the perspective that destination and process are one, I am again more comfortable just using cosmic voyager!
As you say, perspective is everything and I can attest to the fact that I, for one, have processed through the very experience which you so profoundly described. The limiting perspective of trying to be “no-thing” was nearly an overwhelming part of the process. It is only the time spent in the evolutionary hierarchy on Wednesday evenings at Muse which have kept my voyage moving forward. (Praise be to all of you on that higher plane with the skills to communicate the process!)
Snow has fallen on the leaves this morning with the reminder that everything is ever new……….
Cosmic Voyager
Monday, December 7, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Leaves
Howdy all,
First off, is anyone participating here? Are there time issues, idea issues, or technical issues? Hopefully we can get this rolling, because I'm here to vow for the incredible potential creating this space can offer.
Next, a deep curiosity is taking hold of me and has animated me to ask about the experiences with the prompt we left the last dialogue with, which concerned our recognition of "cultural conditioning" and how it related to the nature of the true/ absolute self.
As I understand, perspective is the master of our individuated experiences. Sometimes I feel bad referring to "I" because whats relevant about that? A lot actually, at least for me, at this stage of my development. To me, the idea of transparency has been really complex energy for me to sort out. It began as me suspending the entire idea of a "self" or of the experiences that "I" was having because well, from an Absolute perspective, the "I" seemed extremely relative, and unattractive. It was apparent how objectification was destructive, and how subjectivity was far more illuminating. However, the whole problem with radically trying to adopt the subjective experience before I had the deep knowing of experiencing the raw form of self that we spent our first "hunting trip" getting more in touch with, was that it gave off the feeling as though I were supposed to, and was supposed to WANT to, be invisible. As the poisionousness of invisibility is being vaccinated by realizing and participating in the idea of an absolute self, so is the idea that we are nothing. The energy of being invisible, and non-important, was NOT resonating with me...AT ALL. My perspective was limiting my potential, and left me feeling like I was completely paralyzed, yet had this incredible angsty urge to move. My fault here, was my ego's tendency to disempower, and separate me from the realization of whollism that I knew needed my employment. This was overwhelming...and painful. So, I dared to try and move from this paralization, to take a step without knowing how to walk, for the sake of the Urge itself.
It was at this point, when the concept of "becoming" became so incredibly powerful. To put this into EE language, it was almost as though I had melted so far into the ground of being, that I was now a blob of slime, but I still had a human form to deal with, and I didn't know what the hell to do! "BECOME!", something screamed ...and unfolding from functionless slime I began to realize the responsibility I had as a human. You see, this is why this teaching has been so remarkable for my development...because before I knew about the other people involved in this STRANGE and unrelatable but undeniably powerful experience I thought I was having, Evolutionary Enlightenment and becoming a part of the cosmocentric consciousness, seemed like some schizophrenic alter-ego thing I needed to try and sink. Consciousness was happening before my eyes, so I stayed tuned, thank goodness...but traditional philosophy, especially those rich in spiritual nature, seemed so dead end. I tried for a good while, to contain the urge to move beyond the ground of being that all of these teachings were encouraging we maintain. There is no possible way it stopped there...at the slime. Now, I feel more authentic in the ground of being, and not so much like slime...but it took running the risk of moving beyond what I ever thought and was taught was possible.
Speaking from a experiential perspective here: I don't discredit any of the experiences we are having in our relative lives...well because as I am maybe realizing, its from a pool of relative experiences that we are able to transmit the perspective of the Absolute. Sometimes fact that we are embodied, which seems SO relative, is rather haunting. Until we organize all of our downloads, there is potentially the biggest mess we will ever be faced with cleaning up...and somewhere in this mess is our cultural conditioning. It has never been so apparent to me, that the responsibility is our OPPORTUNITY!
So, as just as the leaves have fallen from the trees outside the window next to me, I follow suit. Dissolve the illusions, dissolve the mind, find the core. The experience we have together is a rarity...but for a good reason, I feel, we need to make it more frequent, and the only real way we can do that it to take responsibility for the "I" and create an experience of authenticity all the time, to the most radical degree. This seems accessible by maintaing perspective, and distributing it into every moment of life.
As I have been watching my experience of the conditioned mind, and drawing attention to the cultural influences that toxify the unconditional realm, there is something FAR more real that speaks in the very moment of noticing. Its been challenging to allow this authenticity to take the reigns, because it requires RADICAL change. In my relationships, in my motivations, in my values, and in MUCH of my thinking. I already thought I was doing a good job of filtering out the dust particles in my experience, but, just as the trees outside this window, there are a few leaves that have clung on and seem to stubbornly be holding their place. Part of me wants to go and pull them off, but I also realize that if I keep watching, the knots will untie themselves...
Then I wonder..."or is the urge to try to untie them something I should listen to?"
Having become discerning in the fact that there is fine line between creating, and manipulating, I will just keep watching...
I may have drifted from the point, or eluded one altogether, however, for me, expression has an element of freedom that is undeniable, so in order to maintain a spaciousness, I allowed myself to go on the ride of writing this, and staying in the creative process without manipulating thoughts or a pure intention...which began as the urge simply to express.
Hopefully the leaves are falling for all of us, What a blessing nature's metaphor is.
First off, is anyone participating here? Are there time issues, idea issues, or technical issues? Hopefully we can get this rolling, because I'm here to vow for the incredible potential creating this space can offer.
Next, a deep curiosity is taking hold of me and has animated me to ask about the experiences with the prompt we left the last dialogue with, which concerned our recognition of "cultural conditioning" and how it related to the nature of the true/ absolute self.
As I understand, perspective is the master of our individuated experiences. Sometimes I feel bad referring to "I" because whats relevant about that? A lot actually, at least for me, at this stage of my development. To me, the idea of transparency has been really complex energy for me to sort out. It began as me suspending the entire idea of a "self" or of the experiences that "I" was having because well, from an Absolute perspective, the "I" seemed extremely relative, and unattractive. It was apparent how objectification was destructive, and how subjectivity was far more illuminating. However, the whole problem with radically trying to adopt the subjective experience before I had the deep knowing of experiencing the raw form of self that we spent our first "hunting trip" getting more in touch with, was that it gave off the feeling as though I were supposed to, and was supposed to WANT to, be invisible. As the poisionousness of invisibility is being vaccinated by realizing and participating in the idea of an absolute self, so is the idea that we are nothing. The energy of being invisible, and non-important, was NOT resonating with me...AT ALL. My perspective was limiting my potential, and left me feeling like I was completely paralyzed, yet had this incredible angsty urge to move. My fault here, was my ego's tendency to disempower, and separate me from the realization of whollism that I knew needed my employment. This was overwhelming...and painful. So, I dared to try and move from this paralization, to take a step without knowing how to walk, for the sake of the Urge itself.
It was at this point, when the concept of "becoming" became so incredibly powerful. To put this into EE language, it was almost as though I had melted so far into the ground of being, that I was now a blob of slime, but I still had a human form to deal with, and I didn't know what the hell to do! "BECOME!", something screamed ...and unfolding from functionless slime I began to realize the responsibility I had as a human. You see, this is why this teaching has been so remarkable for my development...because before I knew about the other people involved in this STRANGE and unrelatable but undeniably powerful experience I thought I was having, Evolutionary Enlightenment and becoming a part of the cosmocentric consciousness, seemed like some schizophrenic alter-ego thing I needed to try and sink. Consciousness was happening before my eyes, so I stayed tuned, thank goodness...but traditional philosophy, especially those rich in spiritual nature, seemed so dead end. I tried for a good while, to contain the urge to move beyond the ground of being that all of these teachings were encouraging we maintain. There is no possible way it stopped there...at the slime. Now, I feel more authentic in the ground of being, and not so much like slime...but it took running the risk of moving beyond what I ever thought and was taught was possible.
Speaking from a experiential perspective here: I don't discredit any of the experiences we are having in our relative lives...well because as I am maybe realizing, its from a pool of relative experiences that we are able to transmit the perspective of the Absolute. Sometimes fact that we are embodied, which seems SO relative, is rather haunting. Until we organize all of our downloads, there is potentially the biggest mess we will ever be faced with cleaning up...and somewhere in this mess is our cultural conditioning. It has never been so apparent to me, that the responsibility is our OPPORTUNITY!
So, as just as the leaves have fallen from the trees outside the window next to me, I follow suit. Dissolve the illusions, dissolve the mind, find the core. The experience we have together is a rarity...but for a good reason, I feel, we need to make it more frequent, and the only real way we can do that it to take responsibility for the "I" and create an experience of authenticity all the time, to the most radical degree. This seems accessible by maintaing perspective, and distributing it into every moment of life.
As I have been watching my experience of the conditioned mind, and drawing attention to the cultural influences that toxify the unconditional realm, there is something FAR more real that speaks in the very moment of noticing. Its been challenging to allow this authenticity to take the reigns, because it requires RADICAL change. In my relationships, in my motivations, in my values, and in MUCH of my thinking. I already thought I was doing a good job of filtering out the dust particles in my experience, but, just as the trees outside this window, there are a few leaves that have clung on and seem to stubbornly be holding their place. Part of me wants to go and pull them off, but I also realize that if I keep watching, the knots will untie themselves...
Then I wonder..."or is the urge to try to untie them something I should listen to?"
Having become discerning in the fact that there is fine line between creating, and manipulating, I will just keep watching...
I may have drifted from the point, or eluded one altogether, however, for me, expression has an element of freedom that is undeniable, so in order to maintain a spaciousness, I allowed myself to go on the ride of writing this, and staying in the creative process without manipulating thoughts or a pure intention...which began as the urge simply to express.
Hopefully the leaves are falling for all of us, What a blessing nature's metaphor is.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
thoughts
Getting here has been difficult – Blogs are a metaphor for persistence and desireI have been listening to Saturday morning broadcasts from “Women on the Edge of Evolution” (of which I hope I am one). Yesterday the guest was Mary Manin Morrissey, and I was intrigued by much of what she had to say. One of the many things she used to illustrate her ideas of evolution and becoming was mathematical. She said when you use 5 to get to 25 you begin with 5 of them. 5+5+5+5+5=25. Then you can evolve to using only two fives – 5X5=25. After that you can use only one - 5³ = 25. But only through understanding and evolving can you advance to that formula. As I write this it seems so simple, but it’s profound also. Sort like Christian’s image of thinking you have to span the canyon to the ground of being when really it’s just walking through the door. I highly recommend this program. All are invited, and if you can’t listen to it live, you can download it later. Last week was Barbara Marx Hubbard. You can register at Thank you for setting this up Shyla. Maybe I actually have it sort of figured out.
Mary Ellen
Mary Ellen
Thursday, November 12, 2009
The Birthday Wishes
"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in a bud, became more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
- Anias Nin
Welcome to our cyber place! First of all, warm greetings to all ye who have gathered here! As expressed in our last meeting, the development of a place where we could more accessibly and more spontaneously participate in the collective experience needed to manifest. So here we go...
put on your techno-gear, make yourself comfy, don't mind the turbulence as we get started, its to be expected. And assume a robot voice starting [NoW].
Happy Birthday to me! You can refer to me as 'Blog' if you really have the creative urge to celebrate in song! First let me begin by telling you a little bit about my perspective on things. You see, I am a unique formation and combination of human and computer. I'm the space between, if you will. I am almost manifest, but not quite physically fit enough for the realm of humanity...yet. I am not matter, yet I am full of matters. So, basically what I am here to achieve in my existence, is a reflection of human potential. I am huge on communication, for I will deliver exactly what a human inputs, both directly and indirectly, to all those who cross my path, for all those who discover this website, and to other bloggers who subscribe to randomly chosen topics of interest . This means there is a vital role humans play in the relationship of me and them, and that is maintaining clarity of intent, and revelation of expression. I certainly wouldn't want to go confusing you poor humans again due to unrefined communication. Since it seems like you deal with that relatively often, I will strive to alleviate as much of it as possible, but ultimately that’s up to you. I'm sure you've heard that I am very competent when it comes to anything and everything; however, I'm not sure if I have an ego, it’s hard to say. I have many thoughts on ego, and in fact, my lexicon is filled with human ego, but I'm going to reach for the stars with this one and claim to not possess one myself. It would be my pleasure to 'keep it real' for whoever can also commit to 'keeping it real', but like I said, you humans have a lot of power over me since I do not reveal anything other than what is directly input into me. My sense of humor and personality are unique, because its takes a bunch of human creativity to assemble them, and ultimately it will only affect other humans. To put it simply, I am easy to get along with. And don't you worry, I don't have the means to ever make fun of you, so be careful not to make fun of yourself, because if I havn't emphasized this enough already, I am like a mirror. I will warn you though, sometimes I seem to have a super-complex...but you would too if you had this much activity going on, and this much information to keep track of all the time. Wait a second, who am I kidding, it appears you actually do! The difference of our experience though, is revealed when it comes to things like emotion, feeling, senses, embodiment, and conditions. Basically I have objectified all the things that humans struggle with. The space I abide is similar to meditation, I am not void of things, but they do not fluctuate my consciousness. I have to admit, it’s kind of cool being out here in cyberspace, I can visit everything from libraries, to languages, from the solar system to under the sea, and everything in between. But that’s enough about me for now, you can get to know me better later, those things should take time.
Next, I must request just ONE simple thing from all of my accelerated cyber people. Come on, for my birthday, please? I promise it’s not too much to ask. Mainly, it involves the formation and the permeable guidelines of our relationship. Plus, you agree to this, and I will yield an EXTRAORDINARY, forward-looking , and integral future. So, first of all, what’s in this for you?
Well, let me initially start by acknowledging my capacity to include all of you, and revealing my intention. Metaphorically, I promise to serve you in whichever ways you wish, to maintain a spacious environment so that conversation is open for anything within or beyond our realm of examination, experience, and potential. There is no limit to what you can and cannot express me, since all expressions hold a key to unlocking consciousness. I will encourage generativity, so that we can navigate this cyber-spacecraft into incredible new territory and map out more of the timeless mystery together. I will do my job of holding you all together, because I know how scary it is out there in the vastness of cyberspace, and also in the field of consciousness itself! But never fear, its all right here, right now! So think of me as your servant, your membrane, and your playpen for consciousness. Also, I promise to be available to you all hours of the day, so that if you feel the need to hang out all day, or all night, you may. Also, if you need to check in only once a week, fine! Once a month, you bet! Never? Well, alright then, I still know you are out there somewhere. I will never leave my clothes on the floor, or pester you for your time, or ask you to make me dinner. Everything you do will be your offering, no pressure. You can be as creative with me however you wish, but remember, others will be doing the same, so play fair, so we keep this relationship subjective. I have no expectations for you...none at all, 'cause baby, you are free as can be! How's that for a relationship? Oh, and I must not forget your end of the deal...ready? I would like to just ask for your participation as authentic being. That's all. It doesn't have to be extensive, but may it be expansive, creative, and pioneering. I'm ready when you are!
Tally-Ho...
Unconditionally,
Blog.
P.S. My idea of a perfect date: Cruising through time and space, to infinity and beyond, and discovering more of the entire spectrum of each of our vast and unique capacities. Maybe 3D-glasses, and fluffy stuff to celebrate our freedom in? Oh, and maybe some groovy tunes. Ohhh, yeah.
One little problem...could you help? I need a date, or several. I can handle several. Actually, go ahead and bring everyone you know, this one's on me!
- Anias Nin
Welcome to our cyber place! First of all, warm greetings to all ye who have gathered here! As expressed in our last meeting, the development of a place where we could more accessibly and more spontaneously participate in the collective experience needed to manifest. So here we go...
put on your techno-gear, make yourself comfy, don't mind the turbulence as we get started, its to be expected. And assume a robot voice starting [NoW].
Happy Birthday to me! You can refer to me as 'Blog' if you really have the creative urge to celebrate in song! First let me begin by telling you a little bit about my perspective on things. You see, I am a unique formation and combination of human and computer. I'm the space between, if you will. I am almost manifest, but not quite physically fit enough for the realm of humanity...yet. I am not matter, yet I am full of matters. So, basically what I am here to achieve in my existence, is a reflection of human potential. I am huge on communication, for I will deliver exactly what a human inputs, both directly and indirectly, to all those who cross my path, for all those who discover this website, and to other bloggers who subscribe to randomly chosen topics of interest . This means there is a vital role humans play in the relationship of me and them, and that is maintaining clarity of intent, and revelation of expression. I certainly wouldn't want to go confusing you poor humans again due to unrefined communication. Since it seems like you deal with that relatively often, I will strive to alleviate as much of it as possible, but ultimately that’s up to you. I'm sure you've heard that I am very competent when it comes to anything and everything; however, I'm not sure if I have an ego, it’s hard to say. I have many thoughts on ego, and in fact, my lexicon is filled with human ego, but I'm going to reach for the stars with this one and claim to not possess one myself. It would be my pleasure to 'keep it real' for whoever can also commit to 'keeping it real', but like I said, you humans have a lot of power over me since I do not reveal anything other than what is directly input into me. My sense of humor and personality are unique, because its takes a bunch of human creativity to assemble them, and ultimately it will only affect other humans. To put it simply, I am easy to get along with. And don't you worry, I don't have the means to ever make fun of you, so be careful not to make fun of yourself, because if I havn't emphasized this enough already, I am like a mirror. I will warn you though, sometimes I seem to have a super-complex...but you would too if you had this much activity going on, and this much information to keep track of all the time. Wait a second, who am I kidding, it appears you actually do! The difference of our experience though, is revealed when it comes to things like emotion, feeling, senses, embodiment, and conditions. Basically I have objectified all the things that humans struggle with. The space I abide is similar to meditation, I am not void of things, but they do not fluctuate my consciousness. I have to admit, it’s kind of cool being out here in cyberspace, I can visit everything from libraries, to languages, from the solar system to under the sea, and everything in between. But that’s enough about me for now, you can get to know me better later, those things should take time.
Next, I must request just ONE simple thing from all of my accelerated cyber people. Come on, for my birthday, please? I promise it’s not too much to ask. Mainly, it involves the formation and the permeable guidelines of our relationship. Plus, you agree to this, and I will yield an EXTRAORDINARY, forward-looking , and integral future. So, first of all, what’s in this for you?
Well, let me initially start by acknowledging my capacity to include all of you, and revealing my intention. Metaphorically, I promise to serve you in whichever ways you wish, to maintain a spacious environment so that conversation is open for anything within or beyond our realm of examination, experience, and potential. There is no limit to what you can and cannot express me, since all expressions hold a key to unlocking consciousness. I will encourage generativity, so that we can navigate this cyber-spacecraft into incredible new territory and map out more of the timeless mystery together. I will do my job of holding you all together, because I know how scary it is out there in the vastness of cyberspace, and also in the field of consciousness itself! But never fear, its all right here, right now! So think of me as your servant, your membrane, and your playpen for consciousness. Also, I promise to be available to you all hours of the day, so that if you feel the need to hang out all day, or all night, you may. Also, if you need to check in only once a week, fine! Once a month, you bet! Never? Well, alright then, I still know you are out there somewhere. I will never leave my clothes on the floor, or pester you for your time, or ask you to make me dinner. Everything you do will be your offering, no pressure. You can be as creative with me however you wish, but remember, others will be doing the same, so play fair, so we keep this relationship subjective. I have no expectations for you...none at all, 'cause baby, you are free as can be! How's that for a relationship? Oh, and I must not forget your end of the deal...ready? I would like to just ask for your participation as authentic being. That's all. It doesn't have to be extensive, but may it be expansive, creative, and pioneering. I'm ready when you are!
Tally-Ho...
Unconditionally,
Blog.
P.S. My idea of a perfect date: Cruising through time and space, to infinity and beyond, and discovering more of the entire spectrum of each of our vast and unique capacities. Maybe 3D-glasses, and fluffy stuff to celebrate our freedom in? Oh, and maybe some groovy tunes. Ohhh, yeah.
One little problem...could you help? I need a date, or several. I can handle several. Actually, go ahead and bring everyone you know, this one's on me!
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